The Jigsaw Puzzle!

Have you ever seen the birds flying back home at dusk, when the sun is setting down and the sky is showing off it’s beautiful colours?, If you have, you would agree that it actually is one of the most calming and satisfactory views, and that’s the reason I spent a lot of my lockdown time on my terrace, enjoying the sunsets and the cold breeze it brought with it, the dusk was actually the time I felt most sane in the whole day. Yesterday, around 6 PM I was again on my terrace, feeling the joys of dusk, when I saw the usual group of birds flying back home, but here’s the thing with birds, they like to play on their journey, going round and round, as if they are stalling going back home. Amongst the huge group, I noticed two birds, who were stalling going back in particular, they enjoyed spending time together so much. I know it sounds very usual, but very few understand the feeling of having someone you just don’t wanna let go, someone with whom each second spent feels like worth a lifetime, and when you actually meet them, you dread losing them every second, and you dread the time you’ll part. I know it sounds super clingy, cliche and philosophical to handle, but it is cliche, isn’t it, the principles of love have always remained the same, what has changed is the manner to express it, and the pattern to find it. But, apart all these technicalities and philosophical stuff, which by the way is very very heavy to take in right now, and by right now I mean looking at the current scenario, I haven’t met any of my close ones in last 3 months due to the nation wide lockdown (as a result of COVID-19), and that’s why I miss him so much. I know sounds like every other couple who are crying about how much they miss each other during this apocalypse, but the thing is no one’s missing their partners, what they’re actually missing are the little shenanigans they shared between them, which were special and sacred, similarly I shared so many shenanigans with him. We would walk around holding hands like a couple of 10th graders, we’d steal kisses every now then, as if it didn’t matter that we were surrounded by a whole well aware world. All of our special dates, where I would always mess up the food and he’d laugh hysterically at me, and then I’d make puppy eyes at him so that he’ll run to the counter and get me paper napkins, even the movies were so special with him, I remember I once watched a movie from a very huge franchise, trust me I hadn’t watched a single movie from that series, but he was soooo excited to watch that movie, I know feels off topic, but the point here isn’t going out and watching movies or going on dates where I look obnoxious, the point here is spending time together, where one of us would happily do something they’re not that comfortable doing just so both of us could spend time together, and not letting each other go. Just like those birds in the sky at dusk. There’s one thing in our relationship that I think is hard to find, where most of the relationships today are like jenga, our relationship is like a jigsaw puzzle, until and unless we both are ready to put in efforts the puzzle will keep solving itself.